There just never seems to be enough. It passes so quickly. We waste it. We sometimes use it wisely. It disappears before our very eyes. Time that is. A precious item that's so easy to take for granted.
I first became aware of my problem with finding time and keeping up with time when I was a mature age arts student. I was juggling study with kids and some casual work. It was during a creative writing course in the evening when it first struck me. We would all arrive at the class and each week it would begin the same way - with free writing. We were expected to just write. Whatever came into our minds was fine. There was no pressure to read it to the class or do anything with it. It was just about the act of writing.
After several weeks of this class I began to notice a very strong theme emerging in my writing. I could not ignore it. Despite my different starting point each week, regardless of what had happened between classes or how I was feeling at the time of the class, the theme continued to emerge. It was often vague or hidden but I knew it was there.
The theme was time - or more accurately my lack of time, my struggle with finding time, my awareness that time was passing before me. My children were growing up. Finding time for myself was always a challenge. To get to the class took any almighty effort. It was no wonder that time emerged constantly in my writing but it really annoyed me. I wanted to write about other, more interesting things but time kept coming through strongly in its own distinctive way. This told me what an important issue it was for me during that period of my life.
I've often recalled that class as I have continued my struggle with time.As I age, I am even more aware of time passing, of making the most of the time we have, of valuing time and using it well. I have also learnt to sometimes just let time pass, not fight it but allow myself to get into the flow of things. I've learnt that it will keep on moving regardless of what I do so I can work with it, use it to help frame my day. Even use it as a reminder to value life itself.